This morning while waiting for the school bus I was going over mylist of errands with Kinsey in the car. After listing off the groceries I was planning to get, Kinsey says "Okay" in a disappointed tone. To which I respond " you dont want bananas?"
Then she says " nope, i want oranges and donuts."
" donuts are fruit too mommy!"
Ummm no they arent. I wish.
I love you little girl.
Your momma,
Heather Jo
Tonight you asked me to read a book that is kind of long....
I hesitated but did it anyway.
You were alert through most of it, but as i finished the last couple pages you grew quieter.
When I finished I looked over at you and you're eyes were fluttering and you lay basically asleep until I tried to stand up from sitting on the bed.
It was the first time that you almost feel asleep from story time...and I didn't even want to move, I could have watched you all night.
Oh how I love you,
Your momma,
Heather Jo
As we return from one side of the family's vacation, I'm struck with how much I want this season of life with you Kinsey Jewel to last a longtime.
Are you exhausting? Yes.
Are you the cutest bestest thing since sliced bread? Absolutely.
Are you my heart and my conscience? Yep.
I am certainly challenged by you as a parent, but also as a person.
There are just things that you do or say that bring to mind some weighty issues. Parenting is really for us parents to truly and finally grow up.
As if the first time I thought I was growing up was scary, now I'm terrified.
God works in mysterious ways sweetheart.
I love you,
All of you, the good and bad,
Heather Jo
So my love. You came down with a cold with a gross sounding cough.
Tonight I am relaxing on the couch when you get up from your nap and sit next to me. You remind me that Daddy doesn't want to touch your hands or face because he doesn't want to get sick....okay....
Minutes go by as Daddy and I are trying to finish a movie, when you let out three farts. Not one fart but three in a row. Daddy asks "WHAT was that?" I told him you farted, and you agree, it was you
Then you turn to me and say " don't touch my hands or face okay mommy?", when i didn't respond you grab my face with both hands and repeat yourself while talking right in my face.
Then just a millisecond later you turn to me and say " i love to fart."
Just matter-of-fact, no humor.
" i love to fart".
I.almost.peed.my.pants.laughing.
I sure love you Kinsey Jewel,
Love your momma,
Heather Jo
Today I decided to take you to "create-a-memory", a paint/pottery/stained glass art studio here in town. I've been going for years, taking hours to paint one item.
So today we went to do just that- or so I thought.
We arrived and you picked out an M to paint in like ten seconds.
Immediately you were ready for paint colors, blue and purple of course. After getting set you started to paint. I went to pick out colors for the vase i wanted to paint.
I get back maybe two minutes have gone by and you're almost done!
I sit down to paint and you say to me, "I'm done, whats next for art?"
Ahhhh! Ok so we get you a K next and two new colors that will never match the blue and purple on the M.
That takes you a little longer, thank goodness.
I am almost finished painting the simplest vase ever, and I make a mistake. I groan out loud, to which you reply, " It's okay momma, there is no right or wrong in art!"
Well, you're right sweetie.
So i left the mistake there and added your quote.
So little, but so wise.
Love you my little artist!
Your Momma,
Heather Jo
Dearest daughter,
I DO NOT WANT YOU TO GET THIS!
So I'm sorry that you're feelings are hurt when I don't play with you. Or when I have to leave your room because I coughed so hard I peed myself a little.
I'm sorry that my energy is low, and daddy's too. Or that you have to wash your hands constantly, and avoid touching doors and couches and that kind of stuff
But my darling, if you get this cold, i will feel SO guilty.
So until Momma and Daddy feel better life might be a little boring or rigid. But we do this because we love you and never want you to hurt if we can help it. Especially physically.
We love you Kinsey Jewel.
Love,
Your momma,
Heather Jo
It's been over a year my little one since I've written to you. Well today made me want to write again.
After being sick for 6 days today I finally felt well enough to attempt chores and errands. Of course Daddy got sick and we left him at home.
I dropped you at your sitter's (Elizabeth's) for a few hours.
Later when i picked you up i took you to baskin & robbins. I love that place!!
It holds a lot of warm memories from my childhood, and i hope it will for you. It's not really about the ice cream, although that makes out considerably better, but about that special twenty minutes that my mom took out of her day to be with just me. I know a lot of kids don't get much one on one time with their parents alone. I hope we can expand to things like crafts or reading the same book and talking about it, or having philosophic discussions, or pedicures and manicures. 😉
Anyway back to today....
So we're sitting enjoying our ice cream (you with vanilla and chocolate sauce, me with fudge brownie and hot fudge), and you look up at me and say " I love you so much".
I melted.
I can't help but think that in 10 or so years you probably will never say that to me. I hope it's not true, but I'm expecting it....
Kinsey please read this in ten years and tell me that you love me so much.
Cherishing the moment,
Your momma,
Heather Jo
