Ever since you came along Kinsey, I've struggled with weird and sometimes downright scary dreams. I guess its those crazy hormones.
I had a doozy of one the other night.
There I was, pregnant with a little brother for you Kinsey, and I died. After I gave birth to him that is. It was awful. I've never experienced so much sorrow in my heart. I had to leave you behind, and this incredible little boy I didn't know. And I left Daddy behind, alone, and it broke my heart.
In the dream I had no choice. I couldn't "come" back. I wept in the arms of my father, my heavenly Father, as I watched you and Daddy and the little one...
Hopefully this won't happen- ever. But I wanted to document it, because I love you and Daddy- and any future children- so much. I want you to know that, because sometimes I get upset, or annoyed. Anytime that might happen, just remember I love you.
Your Momma,
Heather Jo
