Dear Kinsey,
This may be one of the more important posts I write to you. While I hope that you will have your daddy's disposition and be an optimist, half of you is from me, and well let's just say that God made me more sensitive, and more "realistic" (code for pessimistic). So as the years have gone by and I've made one completely selfish choice after another that has created circimstances and a situation in where I am not only feeling trapped but also overwhelmed, hopeless, useless, and possibly even a little suicidal. Not to be dramatic. I feel emotions very deeply and, though I'm not proud of it, they tend to make or break my day.
I wanted to share that with you so you know that you arent alone if you feel like this. But that's not the end....thankfully God has saved me from this emotionally controlled life. I have times that I descend into that tendency again, but God's word and His Spirit soothe my weary spirit and breathe the Truth into my heart, mind and soul. I am a weak follower of Christ, but He is enough and His act of obedience makes me enough.
No person can give you this.
No activity, sport or hobby can give you this.
No amount of drugs or alcohol can give you this.
No amount of "things" can give you this.
No amount of power or status can give you this.
No amouny of money can give you this.
Please, please remember this. No matter how it "seems" or "feels" like these other things can give you what your soul is longing for, THEY CANNOT.
I love you so much Kinsey Jewel.
I pray that you choose to love and obey God in your life. If you do, you will never regret it. I never have. I only regret my disobediences and their consequences. I will never regret my choice to love and obey. Never.
Your momma,
Heather Jo
